past year or so has been one trial after another. It's a battle that
rages from day to day. Although I do feel like I am getting better when I
look back at the past year....it still is so hard to not be what I used
to be,and I ask God would I ever be the same. Many roadblocks have
seemed to find their way into my path, but deep in my heart I knew there
was no hurdle that I could not pass. God had
gotten me this far and I knew He just wouldn't leave me here. So today,
I pick up some of the small pieces of who I used to be and I begin to
gather what pieces God wants me to gather to form the new me-one with a
Heart Like HIS.
Pain and hardship builds character.....but I'm
wondering how much character building was I needing. Had pride stepped
in the way of my ministry? Had my ability to accomplish everything on my
own strength yielded God to take me to a level that my dependence was
totally on his strength? What lesson am I to take from this and in what
way Lord do you want me to use this?
I know God has a story to
tell through this. I know that everything that has happened in my life
God has used to give glory to himself. I also know that throughout
scripture everyone that God used had difficulties along the way.
Character builders!! I am ready for that time. I'm ready to have the
strength and energy and feel good enough to get back out there and be an
inspiration to the gospel that I stand upon. I feel like I'm trapped
right now in a world that doesn't use my ministry gifts. I pray daily
that God would remove this thorn and my ministry can resume. I ask for
wisdom and discernment on what God's plan for my life is and I ask for
strength to endure so that through this I may bring glory to him.