Amarte Solo a Ti
I have loved you with
an everlasting love; therefore I have continued my faithfulness to you.
(Jeremiah 31:3)
I remember a few years back when I first heard this song, it
was a time that I was in such a desperate need of being loved and accepted by
someone who clearly was not able to give me what I needed. It was a time that I
didn't understand who I was in the eyes of my Heavenly Father. I didn't know
that I was a Daughter of a High Ranked King, The Great I AM!! The One who sits on his Heavenly Throne, who
set me apart to do greater things and to be loved and honored as such - A
Daughter of a KING!!
As far as I can remember there was always a feeling of void
in my life and at my early teens I realized what it was. I met my daughter’s
father and what I thought was love opened in me a hunger to seek and want more
of it. We were both young, inexperienced and definitely it was not love but
it felt good, it felt like a high that you didn't want to come down from, but
soon after this feeling became a painful reality that escalated to
adulthood; “The need to be loved”. This
reflected in my personal life, especially when it was being involved with a
man. What I didn't realize back than, but what I have learned today is that no
one can love you like our Heavenly Father does, but it took me years of seeking
in all the wrong places and to all the wrong people. I was at the lowest of the
bottomless pit of low self-esteem, and oh my the insecurity was sucking me dry,
and to top it off the feeling of being rejected was a constant reminder of the
worthless feeling that came with all those tormenting parasites that was eating
within me the Love that I posse in Christ.
The day I heard this song, I was on my way to humiliate
myself to a point of accepting unfaithfulness just to have a least a drop of
love- and as I was driving, this song started to play and I sang it from the top of
my lungs, and a desperate cry for help came from deep within my soul, asking
God to make me strong, to not allow me
to belittle myself every again, to teach me how to love him and him alone and
again I started to replay that song and I kept singing it until I felt the
presence of God come upon me and I made
a U-turn a block away from where I was going and never looked back – I mean
NEVER , EVER looked back!! My life was NEVER the same!! I put closure to that
relationship and that’s when God became my first, my last and my everything!
I love those who love
me, and those who seek me diligently find me. Proverbs 8:17
The feeling of being loved and wanted is an emotion that God
blessed us with from the beginning of time. God has chosen women to play an
important role in the past and He continues to do so today. God intended for
all of us Women to be loved, honored, respected and treated like a Queen. Like the bible tells us - Husbands, love your
wives, just as Christ loved the church and gave himself up for her {Ephesians
5:25}- Wow that is the most amazing feeling to be loved like that - because
that is "Unconditional Love." God
didn't intend for us to be limited or conditioned by the love of a man.....For
the Word of God tells us in Genesis 2:22
- "Then the LORD God made a WOMAN from the rib he had taken out of
the man, and he brought her to the man."
You see ladies, when God created man, He formed man himself
and breathe life into his nostrils. "BUT"......for the woman, HE
fashioned us after he breath the breath of life into man. ..WOW!!
God..."Fashioned US"....because our nostrils are too delicate. God
didn't want man to interrupt His perfect creation, so He put man to go into a
deep sleep, so HE can patiently and perfectly "FASHION US". God
choose the rib, which protects the man's heart and lungs and supports him, as
we are meant to be. God shaped us around this bone, He modeled us, and He
created us perfectly and beautifully. He formed us strong, yet delicate and
fragile, he provided protection from the most delicate organ in a man, his
heart. We were not taken from his feet, to be under the man, nor were we taken
from his heard, to be above him, We were taken from his side - to stand by man
and to be held close to his side. When
God sees us, he sees a perfect creation, his beautiful splendid woman of
excellence!! He fashioned us by his
holiness, His strength, His purity, His love, His protection and support. We are an extension of GOD!! WE represent
the totality of God, so that is why man is commanded to treat us Women well, to
love us, respect us, for we are fragile. Because when a man hurts us, he hurts
God, when a man crushes us, he crushes God and damages his own heart.
That is why today and I pray that as long as I have breath,
I will speak of God’s mercy and grace and most of all HIS Unconditional Love, a
love that has set me free; the love that has shown me the value of who I am.
God’s reflection of love is all over me. A love that created within me “self
worth”; a love that makes me stand in confidence and walk in freedom, a freedom
to Love myself! I love MY GOD… Call me
crazy, because I am crazy in love with my living God!
To Conclude: Throughout the bible, we read and experience the
Love God had for women and how he valued them and He is still urging us women
today to value ourselves and take our place and allow him to love us, to transform
us, to make all things new within us. There
are many of us even today, that are probably reading this that are still
searching, yearning and desiring to be loved, but I came to bring Good News;
God’s love is not measured on our size or appearances or our status quo. God's
love is based on his own LOVE for us when HE gave up his ONLY son to redeem us.
And as I mentioned before throughout the bible, God used his beloved creation
WOMAN to show humanity HIS heart. God’s love is eternal, everlasting and all YOU
have to do is call on him and allow him to restore and make you whole
again. And once you experience this kind
of love, this AGAPE love, you will never, ever accept or settle for mediocrity
love. It is all or nothing!!
I thank God that today my life is a testimony and a tool
that GOD uses to reach out to women that are where I once was.
Written by Maribel Castillo
June 27, 2013
June 27, 2013
